Saturday, 4 January 2020


So, first of: Yes, I'm having surgery. No, it's nothing major.
It won't be until march or so though. January and February is impossible for me.
It will probably take me six weeks in a cast first and then a boot for more weeks.

For the past 25 years or so (Holy shit, has it been this long?) I've been having problems on and off with my right tibialis posterior tendon. It has come and gone depending on how much I ask of it, and is always worse in the winter. I feel the effect of my weight on it, and any extra kilo provokes it. But the last 3 years it has become a lot worse, to the point where I feel a minimum of discomfort at all times.
Training, physical therapy, rest, insoles and bandages, nothing has helped. The only thing I ever felt helped any, was my massage therapist, but she "only" helps with the muscle pain from tensing, not by actually helping with the tendon issue.

I've tried injuring myself in a lot of (stupid) ways over the years, including more broken bones than I'd like to think of. But when this shitty little tendon has been at its worst, it has been the most painful thing I've ever experienced. I've felt sweat rhythmically spring from my forehead when walking on it.
But I'm stubborn and stupid and have been putting this off for too long.

My old coworkers had this emphatic reaction to my periodic limping:
Yes, that was my office chair equipped with a printed handicap-sign, where someone lovingly drew on long hair. My old coworkers were unapologetic assholes and I miss them. My new coworkers are too nice for this kind of loving mocking. 

I hate the idea of surgery. Especially after being so stupid that I tried to look up what they actually do during a tibialis posterior surgery. Pro tip: Don't do it. Just don't. Don't ever look up a video of a surgery up if you're the one going in for it. Settle for nice static pictures instead at the most. Seriously. Don't. Just trust that the nice medical professionals know what they're doing and leave it to them. Nothing good comes out of knowing exactly what they are going to do.
But, this is becoming unsustainable for me, so I will have to get over my dislike of the idea. It's too painful.

At this point they are not sure how bad it really is. I've had X-rays, MRI and ultrasound done and it looks pretty bad. But they simply need to open it up to see what's going on with the tendon, how inflamed the surrounding tissue is and how much scar tissue there is. The minimum procedure is stitching the damaged areas up, removing inflamed tissue and old scar tissue that presses on the tendon. The maximum involves a tendon transfer and realigning the heelbone. Yikes.

I will keep you informed as I know more.


  1. Yuck, that sounds painful and shitty, Ida, sorry to hear about it. If any consolation, always think about that while there might be a few weeks of even more discomfort after the surgery, it will benefit you so much in the long run.
    My sister had a similar problem with inflamed tissue in one of her kneecaps and it got to the point were it nearly went stiff. She was in a right panic over the surgery, but the prospect of not walking anymore was a strong motivation :)

    1. Yea, that's the way I try to see it too =/ I really don't want to, but I should just get it over with so I can get the benefits faster, right?
      How long did it take for your sister to be okay after her surgery?

    2. Hm, I'd say about three month until she couldn't tell anymore that there had been a problem in the first place, but she was able to move around almost normally after about a week without crutches. She did get physical therapy for about a month after the stitches came out and was given some exercises she needed to do starting about two days after surgery. She was still a kid though then, about 13. Maybe healing processes are faster for children, but I have no clue.

  2. Always look at 3D surgeries rather than real ones. After surgery, enjoy looking at the real ones. I made the mistake of watching a breast reduction and knockers are still massive. There are some body parts that just make me cringe when I think about surgery, even though I know it will help me in the long run. Ugh!! Best wishes to you!!!

    1. Yikes. I had happily forgotten I once made that mistake too, and yep... That was traumatizing!
      *Pats the girls* Yep, don't dislike you two THAT much....

  3. PS--love your co-workers sense of humor! :D

    1. I miss them :) They were a bunch of perverted weirdoes with a really dark sense of humor, and I mean that as a compliment! XD